The Disability Book Archive

[ID: An illustrated cover featuring a fat brunette cane-using woman in a cupcake-printed dress holding hands with a fat redheaded trans man in jeans and an open plaid shirt in front of a bakery display case full of cupcakes. /end]

Description taken from ebook.

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Content Warning:

Content warnings taken from author’s website and a copy of the book:

• Detailed description of gender dysphoria.
• References to being misgendered by family.
• Reference to familial estrangement.
• References to fat oppression, trans oppression and ableism.
• References to being a survivor and managing PTSD.
• References to depression.
• Brief reference to familial pressure to mask autism.
• Use of the term “queer” as a reclaimed slur.
• Reference to the lesbian sex wars.
• Many references to BDSM, including Daddy/boy dynamic, D/s, service, bondage, and pain play.
• Depiction of service provided in the context of a D/s relationship.
• Depiction of a BDSM scene that includes bondage, D/s, and service (Chapter 10 only).

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Summary:

In this queer polyamorous m/f romance novella, two metamours realize they have crushes on each other while planning their shared partner’s birthday party together.

Ernest, a Jewish autistic demiromantic queer fat trans man submissive, and Nora, a Jewish disabled queer fat femme cis woman switch, have to contend with an age gap, a desire not to mess up their lovely polyamorous dynamic as metamours, the fact that Ernest has never been attracted to a cis person before, and the reality that they are romantically attracted to each other, all while planning their dominant’s birthday party and trying to do a really good job.

This low conflict foodie romance novella by Xan West includes a queer trans man/cis woman romance, forced proximity and friends to lovers tropes, and polyamorous, demiromantic, bisexual, pansexual, trans, Jewish, fat, autistic, disabled, diabetic, PTSD and depression representation.

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Notes:

This is the first book in the Kink & Showtunes series.

This an ebook. There is a kindle edition.

The cover was designed and illustrated by Hannah Aroni.

Here is a link to the author’s website.

Other works by West on the Archive:

• Nine of Swords, Reversed

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Archivist Comments:

This is the second time I’ve bought one of West’s books for the purpose of this archive and at this point I can say that, while their writing style isn’t necessarily to my taste, it is undoubtedly clear how much their books meant to them and the effort that they put into their writing. I appreciate the effort they go to in the notes that preceded and succeed the story; there is a list of content warnings at the beginning of the story, there are notes regarding the correct pronouns of the characters, and notes regarding polyamory and BDSM content.

On that note, I do believe that while the relationshio between the two characters becomes romantic, it is not sexual.

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